Limerent Vampire. .

The Limerence. .

2012-01-06T17:15:00.000-08:00

"I don't tell anyone about the way you hold my hand

I don't tell anyone about the things that we have planned

Won't tell anybody how you turn my world around

I won't tell anyone your voice is my favourite sound"

Don't believe the things you tell yourself so late at night

Blame Love. .

The Emptiness. .

2011-12-28T13:40:00.000-08:00

Empty, is the sky before the sun wakes up. .

Empty, is the eyes of animals in cages. .

Empty is the faces of women in the morning,

when everything has been taken from them. .

Me, don't ask me about empty. .

Hopeless lover. . .

The Life. .

2011-12-16T16:25:00.001-08:00

If that's what being alive is all about,

I rather be dead. . .

Never be the same again. .

The Thought. . .

2011-12-16T16:18:00.000-08:00

I've been wondering for a long time now. .

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It all boils down to a single question. .

Why aren't i dead yet?

I shall forever be an introvert. . .

The Wait. .

2011-12-15T16:07:00.001-08:00

Things change,

People move on,

But i'm still there,

Waiting. . .

Waiting for. .

Our Footprints In the Sand. .

2011-12-05T23:05:00.001-08:00

I wanna be alone in the world. .

When i fall, there wouldn't be anyone to laugh at me. .

When there's no one else,

I wouldn't fall in love and suffer a heartache. .

When there's no one else,

I wouldn't have to hide my tears. .

When there's no one else,

I would not have to put up a strong front. .

Inexperienced Lover. .

Remember Remember. .

2011-11-21T03:30:00.001-08:00

I should let whatever that would happen to me,

Happen to me. .

And just assure myself that it's all part of karma. .

Once it dropped, it'll fall forever. .

I still remember that song about ten cities. .

Friends are for, Stealing. .

2011-11-12T05:13:00.001-08:00

Hypocritical people should stop making friends. .

They ought to die alone. .

Stop, just stop it. .

You're just another copy cat, doing what other people are doing or asks you to do. .

You're never yourself. .

You can never be he/her. .

Please, just die already. .

I hate every little thing about you. .

2011-10-30T09:24:00.000-07:00

I hate you. .

Never with creativity nor originality. .

You're like a puppet, with no real soul, only to be a slave to your friend's advice. .

You never know when to stop. .

I hate you. .

I hope you would just die. .

Just. . . disappear already. . .

I'm disappointed in you. . .

Am i. . .

2011-10-28T12:22:00.000-07:00

"Maybe I'm over you.

Maybe I've moved on.

Maybe I like someone else.

But maybe, I'm just a really good liar."

Isit fair?. . .

I don't love you, like i did yesterday~

2011-10-25T05:59:00.001-07:00

I don't love you,

But i need you. .

Things are never the same. .

My Mistake...

2011-10-20T03:27:00.001-07:00

It was my mistake to bring you into my life. .

It was my mistake to have you to know and meet my friends. .

It was my mistake to tell you about them and them about you. .

Stop, just stop and get your own hypocritical friends. .

I'm sure it's easy for you to make many of such people. .

Get your own life and be original. .

Perfect. .

2011-10-15T01:56:00.000-07:00

"Perfection is, broadly, a state of completeness and flawlessness"

Not even a Perfectionist is perfect. .

Not even Gods are perfect. .

There are always some flaws just undiscovered. .

You are my inspirations. .

Don't walk away. .

2011-10-07T02:08:00.000-07:00

I screwed up. .

I was nervous. .

and then i walked away. .

I was sorry, regretful. .

And you were sweet, hurt. .

Passage Of Love..

2011-10-02T11:57:00.000-07:00

I Like You..

I Love You..

I Loved You..

I Hate You..

I still ~~Love~~ Hate You..

Love hurts..

Love is. . .

2011-10-02T11:01:00.000-07:00

Not what it seems in fairy-tale..

Not enough to keep you happy..

Not all fun and no work..

Never a one-person job..

Never quite what it seems..

However, Love is one thing for sure..

Love is Overrated..

And it hurts so much..

Looking back. .

2011-10-02T10:47:00.000-07:00

And so..

I've been cheated for 9 months..

I doubted it, and i was right..

Heart : Under-construction

2011-10-02T08:03:00.000-07:00

Needs no One..

Needs no Heartaches..

Needs no Disappointment..

Needs no Hypocrites..

Needs no Love..

Never the same..

Ocean Blues. .

2011-10-01T08:00:00.000-07:00

The sea did not calm, she did not return. .

The boy sat patiently, staring at the ocean. .

Please forget. .

Temporary Love. .

2011-10-01T04:46:00.000-07:00

Guess you've proven me wrong. .

To think that you would need me. .

To think that you would love me. .

To think that you would come back. .

To think that you would stitch these wounds. .

To think that you would be there. .

I was wrong to think of these. .

Never The Same..

2011-09-28T14:21:00.000-07:00

I tried and i tried..

It just doesn't work out..

I'm too used, too used..

Nothing could be done..

Never be done by me..

And therefore, i stopped..

Memories Etched Deep

2011-09-28T14:08:00.000-07:00

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia

Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

Vanilla Twilight - Owl City

What is love?. .

2011-09-18T00:56:00.000-07:00

You say 'Love' all the time,

But what use isit if i don't feel it?. .

The act of 'Love',

What use isit if i don't feel it?. .

You think 'Love',

But what use isit if i don't feel it?. .

Loveless, Loveless, Loveless..

My mind is a Maze..

2011-09-17T11:57:00.000-07:00

I miss the days when i used to watch charlie brown. .

When i said that 'i miss you' to snoopy. .

When i had many lovers secretly. .

When you know everything without me knowing. .

When the people close to you could touch me. .

I could only understand these if i'm you..

The Heart Suffers..

2011-09-17T06:44:00.000-07:00

Each time i cry, my heart hardens. .

And everytime it does, it pulls me deeper into isolation. .

It's a self mechanism which i protect myself, so don't ever call me cold. .

Self-reliance..

What a Lonely Doll i am. .

2011-09-15T10:04:00.001-07:00

I feel so lost and empty inside. .
Haven't been 'living' since. .

Sorry for the smell, i've been dead for a long time..

Finale (Loveless)

2011-09-11T11:17:00.000-07:00

Finale (Loveless)

Even if the morrow is barren of promises..

Nothing shall forestall my return..

To become the dew that quenches the land..

To spare the sands, the seas, the skies..

I offer thee this silent sacrifice..

If the whole world to me i should disappear,

Could i fall right back into you~

Act IV (Loveless)

2011-09-10T05:13:00.000-07:00

Act IV (Loveless)

My friend, the fates are cruel..

There are no dreams, no honor remains..

The arrow has left the bow of the goddess..

My soul, corrupted by vengeance..

Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey..

In my own salvation..

And your eternal slumber..

Legend shall speak..

Of sacrifice at world's end..

The wind sails over the water's surface..

Quietly, but surely..

Sacrifice the world for me

Act III (Loveless)

2011-09-09T10:53:00.000-07:00

Act III (Loveless)

My friend, do you fly away now. .

To a world that abhors you and I. .

All that awaits you is a somber morrow. .

No matter where the winds may blow. .

My friend, your desire. .

Is the bringer of life, the gift of the goddess. .

Even if the morrow is barren of promises. .

Nothing shall forestall my return. .

Left into nothingness. .

Act II (Loveless)

2011-09-08T04:45:00.000-07:00

Act II (Loveless)

There is no hate, only joy..

For you are beloved by the goddess..

Hero of the dawn, Healer of worlds..

Dreams of the morrow hath the shattered soul..

Pride is lost..

Wings stripped away, the end is nigh..

Into pieces. .

Act I (Loveless)

2011-09-07T05:44:00.000-07:00

Act I (Loveless)

Infinite in mystery is the gift of the Goddess..

We seek it thus, and take to the sky..

Ripples form on the water's surface..

The wandering soul knows no rest..

Never the same again. .

Prologue (Loveless)

2011-09-06T08:33:00.000-07:00

Prologue (Loveless)

When the war of the beasts brings about the world's end.
The goddess descends from the sky.

Wings of light and dark spread afar.

She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting.

I'm the fool. .

I'm just feeling. . .

2011-05-31T09:29:00.000-07:00

At times,

I stay awake during weekdays long enough for me to realize this life isn't a game,

Just to torture myself a little here and there. .

And i'll use the weekends to make up for the lack of sleep and fatigue. . .

It's just one of the things which kept me sane. . .

Reverse Psychology. .

Sorry for myself. . .

Death be upon you, signing off Peace. .

Spill your guts all over my grave. .

2011-05-29T02:56:00.000-07:00

Clown are specially trained to make people frown. .

The longer we live,

The higher the chance we die in an accident. . .

Sometimes i prefer to stay quiet is because people doesn't listen to what i say. .

Everything takes a tow when you're old,

Die young or Suffer old. . .

If i sell my memories, how much would you buy it for?. .

Maybe,

i wanna live in a small town with no tall structures to shorten the size of the sky and to block the stars at night. .

I've yet to exact my revenge, I'll be back. .

Vampire Age. .

2011-05-05T07:39:00.001-07:00

It's fine, don't worry, the others had also done it before and they're happier now. . .

It's Perfectly fine to die. .

Signing off, time to die. . .

2011-04-27T06:20:00.000-07:00

Don't bother coming back to this blog till dunnoe when. .

I don't think there would be any post anytime soon. . .

What if the World ends now. .

2011-04-03T13:57:00.000-07:00

What you saw was a snapshot of my life~

Many times,
My thoughts are lost before i could list it down or blog it. .
Some of which are meaningful while some are simply emo to others. . .

What if. . .
The world ends now. .

Judgement

Info:

Angel, trumpets, graves with people rising from them, often water or an ocean.

Story:

As the Fool leaves the garden of the Sun, he feels that he is near the end of his journey, ready to take a final step. But something is keeping him from doing this, holding him back. He gazes up, hoping to find guidance from the Sun; instead he sees above him a fiery angel, beautiful and terrible.

"You are right," the Angelic figure confirms, "you have only one last step on your journey, one final step to completion. But you cannot take that step until you lay your past to rest."

The Fool is perturbed. "Lay it to rest? I thought I'd left it behind, all of it!"

"There is no way to leave the past behind," The Angel observes. "Each step wears down the shoe just a bit, and so shapes the next step you take, and the next and the next. Your past is always under your feet. You cannot hide from it, run from it, or rid yourself of it. But you can call it up, and come to terms with it. Are you willing to do that?"

The Angel hands the Fool a small trumpet. The Fool is hesitant, but he knows that the Angel is right. There are certain memories he has a hard time looking back on as they make him feel guilty, ashamed, angry. He knows that he's never come to terms with what happened and he must if he wants to make that final transition.

He blows the trumpet and it cracks open the Earth. From under the Fool's feet, the spirits of his past selves rise up, including those less than admirable past selves that he's tried to forget.

For the first time, he faces them. They are, he sees, nothing to fear. They were him once-upon-a-time, but not now. Even as he realizes this, he finds himself forgiving those past selves for the wrongs they did that left him feeling bad. He senses, in turn, that they forgive him for ignoring the lessons they had to teach him. As he reaches an understanding with them, they start to rise up and float away, vanishing into the sky. Though they remain as experiences and memories, they no longer have any power over him. He is free of ill-feelings, reborn, and living in the present.

Signing off, Time To Die. . .

Isolation In Solitude. .

2011-03-27T11:18:00.000-07:00

What if the sky rain blood. .

Hermit

Info:

A robed man or monk carrying a lantern, sometimes in hand, sometimes hanging off a staff.
A barren landscape.

Story:

After a long and busy lifetime, building, creating, loving, hating, fighting, compromising, failing, succeeding, the Fool feels a profound need to retreat.

In a small, rustic home deep in the woods, he hides, reading, cleaning, organizing, resting or just thinking.

But every night at dusk he heads out, traveling across the bare, autumnal landscape. He carries only a staff and a lantern.

It is during these restless walks from dusk till dawn, peering at and examining whatever takes his fancy, that he sees things he's missed during his lifetime.

His lantern illuminates animals and insects that only come out at night, flowers and plants that only bloom by moon or star light.

As these secret corners of the world are illuminated and explored by him, he feels that he is also illuminating hidden areas of his mind.

In a way, he has become the Fool again.

As in the beginning, he goes wherever inspiration leads him.

Back then, however, his staff rested on his shoulder, carrying unseen his pack.

The Fool was like the pack: wrapped up, unknown.

The Hermit's staff leans out before him now, not behind.

And it carries a lantern, not a pack.

The Hermit is like the lantern, illuminated from within by all he is, capable of penetrating the darkness.

Time to die in solitude. .

Puppets can't see their own strings. .

2011-03-21T09:20:00.000-07:00

I'll show you just what it's like,

To be gasping for air~

I'll show you what it's like,

To be breathing and dead~

It's never easy being a human,
It never is,
And no one said it's easy. .
It's never easy to please,
It's never easy to speak the truth,
It's never easy to find the one you love,
It's never easy to have a pocket full of money,
It's never easy to get up without anyone helping you. .
But people still lives on. .

"What is the drive that kept you going in your life?. ."

And once again,
The top #1 answer is Family/Friends. . .

It's great that many people has a wonderful family and friends to lean on to,
But that's not the case for everyone else. .
Some people were born with tons of wealth and riches,
But others were forced into child labour and begging. . .
Treasure your life,
While you still can. .

The night sky is a beautiful portrait to see. .

It's dark and pretty and just so mysteriously black(or dark blue or red). . .

With the moon hung high,

Morning is nigh. .

The moon is full,

The moon beautiful. .

But after a few days,

The moon starts going away. .

It's be back,

I'm sure,

At least. . .

The Moon

Info:

A full moon (with a crescent within), twin pillars, two dogs/wolves howling, a stream that runs to the ocean, a crayfish emerging out of the water.

Story:

Following the star the Fool travels through the night.
The full Moon rises, illuminating for him a watery path.
And he begins to feel disoriented, as if walking in his sleep.
He passes under the moon, between two pillars ancient and strange.
Suddenly, he looks around to find himself in another land entirely.
When he was in the presence of the High Priestess, he saw hints of this dark land through the sheer veil draped behind her throne.
And later, when he hung from the tree, he felt himself between the physical world and this one.
Now, he has at last passed behind the veil.

Here are the mysteries he sought, the darkest mysteries, ones that have to do with the most primal and ancient powers.
It is a land poets, artists, musicians and madmen know well, a terrifying, alluring place, with very different rules.
Wolves run wild across this land, hunting along side maidens with bow and arrows.
Creatures from childhood nightmares and fantasies peer from shadows, eyes glowing.

The path the Fool was walking is now a river, and he stands hip-deep in the powerful pull of its salty waters.
There is, on the nearby shore, a small boat, but it has no rudder, no oar.
The Fool realizes he has only two choices.
He can lose himself in this desolate, primal land of madness and illusion, howl with the wolves, be hunted down, or he can get into the boat and trust himself to the river.
The moon will be in control either way, but in the boat his surrender to the powers of the unconscious will at least take him somewhere.

Inspiration, visions and genius are the rewards of such surrender to the Moon's Magic, as artists, poets and seers know.
The Fool gets into the boat, and shoves off.
As the waters sweep him away, moonbeams light his "path" and he feels the Mistress of this dark land gazing down at him with the High Priestess's approving eyes.

Signing off, Time to die, See you in the afterlife. .

This night just seemed so different. . .

2011-03-17T11:21:00.000-07:00

With you right here,

I'm a rocketeer~

I just feel like posting something,

Even when my life is threatened or in ruins. .

I wonder. .

Is it wrong to be so honest in every aspect?. .

I wonder. .

Do people accept lies rather than the truth?. .

Lies will get you into trouble,

The truth will too. . .

So what to do?. .

Just keep my lips sealed and move on. . .

Would it be alright to kill just for taste?. .

People are even HIRED to butcher animals. .

Can't i just stab someone and say that i'm hungry?. .

If vegetables do have feelings and they would scream when getting pick off from the ground,

I wonder, what would become of those vegetarians. .

Nothing more than a meat-only person or an omnivore eh. . .

Why do we even have to eat. .

It consumes time and it requires butchering and cooking to get food done. . .

Can't we just pop something into our stomach and our tummies are filled already?. .

I don't know why i think so differently. .

Is it good or bad to have a different mindset. . .

No one knows what you're thinking,

No one can predict what your actions could be. .

Something i just can't pull myself away from. .

We can't choose. .

The Fool

Info:

The fool in colorful motley clothes, pack tied to a staff, a small dog, a cliff.

Story:

With all his worldly possessions in one small pack, the Fool travels he knows not where. So filled with visions, questions, wonder and excitement is he, that he doesn't see the cliff he is likely to fall over. At his heel a small dog harries him (or tries to warn him of a possible mis-step). Will the Fool learn to pay attention to where he's going before it's too late?

Signing off, Time To Die, See you in the Afterlife. . .

Vampires dying from blood loss. .

2011-03-15T07:50:00.000-07:00

Love, taught me to Lie~

Life, taught me to Die~

It'll be funny if a vampire do die from blood loss. .

This means that,

That particular vampire is probably a 'Vegetarian'. .

Oh and do click on the little arrow on the top right,
It reveals my profile and do ask me on formspring!. .

Anyway,

People say Heaven is an Eternal Paradise and everyone is happy there,

and from heaven,

Angels and Gods can see what's happening down on earth. .

So when people dies on earth,

Do Angels and Gods still continues to be happy?. .

Do they continue to live in Eternal Paradise?. .

Are they contended that lives are taken away from people on earth and then they rejoice?. .

Heaven and their loop-holes theory. .

In my theory,

Death stands right beside you when you're about to die. . .

He leads your soul into the light. .

For relationships to go well,

One needs to give in while the other one needs to trust,

Be constant with this and all will be well. .

I've gotten myself into a huge huge mess previously. .

The worst i've ever encountered infact. . .

He was right,

When you're young, you wanted to be 18. .

When you're 18, you ~~hope~~ wish you could relieve your childhood memories. .

Now that i'm 18,

Things are getting messy. . .

But that's when you can see the people who truly care. .

The people who helped you. . .

And the person who pulled you out of your misery. .

I'm glad to have her,

With me,

All this while. . .

She's my personal, maid, cook, accountant, assistant, secretary, consultant and she's definitely my lover. .

Sweet fourth month girl <3

The Lovers

Info:

An angel or cupid, a man and a woman, two trees (in Waite, it is Adam & Eve with one tree having a serpent and apples) - in some decks one tree is flowering and the other has fruits.

Also in some decks there is a man standing between two women.

Story:

The Fool comes to a cross-road, filled with energy, confidence and purpose, knowing exactly where he wants to go and what he wants to do.

But he comes to a dead stop.

A flowering tree marks the path he wants to take, the one he's been planning on taking.

But standing before a fruit tree marking the other path is a woman.

The Fool has met and had relationships with women before, some far more beautiful and alluring.

But she is different.

Seeing her, he feels as though he's just been shot in the heart with cupid's arrow.

That's how shocking, how painful is his "recognition" of her.

As he speaks with her, the feeling intensifies, like finding a missing part of himself.

It is clear that she feels the same about him.

They finish each other's sentences, think the same thoughts.

It is as if an Angel above had introduced their souls to each other.

Though it was his plan to follow the path of the flowering tree, and though it will cause some trouble for him to bring this woman with him, the Fool knows he dare not leave her behind.

Like the fruit tree, she will fulfill him.

No matter how divergent from his original intent, she is his future.

He chooses her, and together they head down a whole new road.

Signing Off, Time To Die, See You in the Afterlife. .

Deaths by the many. .

2011-03-11T10:05:00.000-08:00

Deaths are inevitable. .

Especially the one caused by natural disasters. . .

No one wants any disaster happening to japan,

And that includes me. . .

However,

I secretly hope that the very neighbour of japan do get hit by disasters and the likes. .

Not the country that produces music that strikes asia,

But the atrocious faulty and low quality products made by that country. .

And as i'm typing these,

There is quarrel in the adjacent building of mine. .

What if the tsunami did hit singapore like now, would the quarrel still be going on?. .

Would you hug the person in front of you out of fear?. .

Would you hold on to him/her for dear life while crying your heart out not to die?. .

Life's fragile, i say. . .

And now maybe after this night,

We may be drowning in uncontrollable water forcing it's way down our throat. .

It's likely and i'm just saying. . .

To me,

I don't believe in any religion,

Cause i think it's just a way to hypnotize us to be good and just pray. .

Human minds are amazing,

If you think you could clear the leap of faith,

You might. . .

If you think you're gonna live longer than everyone else,

You might. .

If you did a crime and you think that no one would nab you,

You may be right. . .

If you think your god is gonna help you with what ever your wish for if you prayed hard enough,

Think again,

The only person there for you all the time is yourself. . .

Believe in yourself before doing so in other things. .

It's all in the mind. .

But well,

To me,

Many things are impossible. . .

'Nothing is impossible' you say. .

Then try flying without any source of help. .

Or even try jumping as high as 13 floors with just your bare body. . .

or maybe try teleporting to places. .

There are plenty of things which are impossible. .

The positive saying of 'Nothing is impossible' is totally false. . .

Don't fall prey to fear. .

Don't shiver with the trees. . .

If death comes to us, just take it as we were born like that. .

However,

Death are to be taken lightly. . .

Death

Info:
Skeletal Death, black robes or armor, sometimes with a scythe or a flag featuring a white rose on a black field.
There is often a rising sun.
Sometimes there are other figures, the most common being a child.

Story:
Having left the tree from where he hung, the Fool moves carefully through a fallow field, head still clearing from visions.
The air is cold and wintry, the trees bare.
He knows he has started on his spiritual journey in earnest, but feels strangely empty and profoundly sad, as if he has lost something.
Before him he sees, rising with the sun, a skeleton in black armor mounted on a white horse.
He recognizes it as Death.
As it stops before him, he humbly asks, "Have I died?"
And the Skeleton answers, "Yes, in a way. You sacrificed your old world, your old self. Both are gone, dead."
The Fool cannot keep from weeping.
"Forgive me," he says, embarrassed by his tears.
"There is nothing to forgive," Death replies.
"Mourning is natural and you must deal with your loss before you can accept anything new.
Keep in mind, however, that old leaves must wither and fly away from a tree's branches, leaving them bare, before new green leaves can appear."
As Death rides away, the Fool sees the truth in those words.
He, too, feels like a skeleton, all that he was stripped away.
This, he understands, is how all great transformations start, by removing everything down to bare bone or soil so that something new has room to grow.

Signing off, Time to die, See you in the afterlife. . .

The Hanged Man. .

2011-03-09T08:16:00.000-08:00

I think this post is gonna be longer then the usuals,

Probably cause my brain started producing tons of sticky brain juice. .

First thing first,

In regards to my previous post,

The Family and/or loved ones are the number #1 answer for The Most Beautiful Thing In Your Life. .

And i'm here to say a couple of things about that. . .

For those who are experiencing difficulties in your present state with your loved one,

Do lighten up your heart and EAT CHOCOLATES!. .
As for your family,
You could try getting them a card saying how apologetic you are,
After all you are in their blood line. . .
And as for your second half,
You guys could give each other time,
Take a break from each other and/or have a permanent separation if things are really becoming a predicament. . .

And lastly,
For those who are happy,
Share or spread the happiness will you?. .

Well, moving on. . .
I think i have this amazing ability of revealing a person's personality very quickly,
Unless i'm smitten by someone,
Then my judgement may go wrong. .

And actually i'm really interested in Tarot cards. .
Even though poker cards may replace Tarot cards,
Tarot cards are made specifically for telling fortune and poker cards are mainly for gambling. . .

I'm gonna post the description of each card in my post,
Well it's actually only for my reference. .

The Hanged Man

Info:

A man hanging by one foot from a bar or tree.

His free leg is always bent to form an inverted 4 his face is always peaceful, never suffering.

Sometimes his hands are bound, sometimes they dangle.

Sometimes coins fall out of his pockets or hands.

Story:

The Fool settles beneath a tree, intent on finding his spiritual self.

There he stays for nine days, without eating, barely moving.
People pass by him, animals, clouds, the wind, the rain, the stars, sun and moon.
On the ninth day, with no conscious thought of why, he climbs the tree and dangles from a branch upside down like a child.

For a moment, he surrenders all that he is, wants, knows or cares about.

Coins fall from his pockets and as he gazes down on them, seeing them not as money but only as round bits of metal.

It seems to him that his perspective of the world has completely changed, as if his inverted position has allowed him to dangle between the mundane world and the spiritual world, able to see both. It is a dazzling moment, dreamlike yet crystal clear.
Timeless as this moment of clarity seems, he realizes that it will not last.
Very soon, he must right himself, but when he does, things will be different.
He will have to act on what he's learned.
For now, however, he just hangs, weightless as if underwater, observing, absorbing, seeing.

Signing off, Time to die, See you in the next life. . .

What a Beautiful thing. . .

2011-03-06T07:28:00.000-08:00

I'm already dead inside. .

Yesterday's a pretty lazy saturday to me. .

And in the night i asked,

"What is the most Beautiful thing to you?. ."

The top #1 answer i've got is 'Family and/or Loved ones'

The most sweet answer goes to 'Smile and Sunset'

And the most shocking answer goes to 'Water'

It's amazing that different people have different mindset, thoughts, feelings and thinking. .

These are what separate us from robots and AIs (Artificial Intelligence). . .

No one is exactly the same and this goes for all twins, triplets quadruplets and so on. .

But if you asks me back the question,

I woouldn't know the answer to that question. .

Well, at least not yet. .

But i'm sure i'll come to know of a perfect answer to that question. . .

Come to think of it,

Life's scary isn't it?. .

Like. . .

In the next moment, you could be feeling Contended
In the next moment, you could be feeling Remorse
In the next moment, you could be Dead
In the next moment, you could be Alive and kicking
In the next moment, your heart could be Taken
In the next moment, your heart could be Broken
In the next moment, you might be Tearing
In the next moment, you might be Grinning from cheeks to cheeks
In the next moment, you could be Mutilating
In the next moment, you could be Downing pills into your throat

But what's listed above is just the cycle of people lives. .

I can't helped but feel betrayed somehow. .

It's just that strong feeling you get when you know it's bound to happen. . .

When you try to lead a normal and peaceful life,

Someone will be there to get in your way,

Causing dents and damages in your perspective of life. .

Well, that's what happened to me at least. . .

Life is just, never fair. . .

And i'm sure that this post is yet again,

Sounding or rather looking pretty emotional. .

Signing off, Time to die, See you in the next life. . .

From the grave. .

2011-03-04T09:21:00.000-08:00

Dying is the latest Fashion. .

Well, dying is the main Attraction. .

Time to revive my blog eh?. .

Since this blog started long ago (all the creepy and scary posts first started),

I don't think i got much viewer or passerby. .

So i've nothing much to get me motivated to continue posting songs and random thoughts. .

But since i'm so waaaaaaaaaaaay too bored most of my time,

Might as well self-entertain eh?~

And it's because not everyone is there for me all the time like 24hours. . .

So there's plenty of time for me to explore my mind of what i've thought and all. .

It's not easy to please everyone,

so therefore i only please myself (this means i post what i want),

and when i could achieve that at the point of time,

why not share the happiness! ^^

*Struggles* i. . need. . to. . post. . much. . more. . . . .

Well i don't really blog like this but hey,

Everything is worth a try when you're dead bored. .

And i thought tonight would be a great night. . .

That's all i have for now. .

My brain's too dry to squeeze any juice out. .

I'll try make this every after midnight thingy,

Provided that i've nothing in the morning. . .

So yeah!~

Signing off, Time to die, See you in the next life. . .